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American Idol Season 10 Top 9

2011-04-08T23:28:00.003+08:00

I was watching American Idol on 8TV just now and when Pia Toscano performed, my dad told me she was eliminated this round. I couldn't believe what he said and I went to googled it. It was true what he said and I just cant believe it.

I cant believe that Pia Toscano was eliminated from American Idol just like that! I am so angry and disappointed after I found that out. I genuinely thought that she would win this and be the next female idol after Jordin Sparks. I cant believe it. She's so beautiful, she is one of the best singers this season and among all of them she got eliminated? What has america done? I really did not get enough of her performance on stage. I really wanted to see what she'll brings on stage the next time, the next next time. Wanted to see what she can do more. How she can express herself, not gone so quickly.

Now, I seriously don't feel like watching American Idol anymore. It's no more fun watching it without her performance. It'll be less interesting and I think that it would be another male winner this season, again. I think just knowing who won Idol would be more than enough rather than wasting my time to watch the rest of season 10.

Now I think the judges wasted their save on Casey. It was way too early to use it for anything would happen. If they hadn't use it on Casey, they would have been able to save Pia. I think America had made a mistake not voting for Pia. Maybe they thought that she would be save on the bench as people would vote for her. But NO! That's just not right. To me, if you think she deserves it, you should vote for her. Support her for that least, let her stay on the stage. The whole result show was just not right. America forgot what happened to Chris Daughtry in Season 5. It is happening again and again. Even though he is a successful singer now, but I'd really love to see the best ones on stage win the thing.

Now I can surely say that I'm definately going to get bored by the rest of American Idol.

negativity

2010-10-02T00:44:00.002+08:00

I really dun like the negativity in me.
But I really do hate where I am heading.
Why cant you guys just see it and give me a break?
How hard is it to give me a break?
You just rather have me wasting all my time on studying.
I'm feeling that you just rather have me wasting time on dragging on graduation by failing more and more papers.
You just rather have me feel bad about myself, my laziness.
Just never want to know the source of all these.
You just want to solve things without knowing the reason.
I'm just wondering. How the hell are you going solve them?
You think you know what is best for me.
You just wants me to do whatever you think is right and not let me try something else and taste the failure of it so I will go to the right track.

FML!

Goodbyes

2010-09-13T23:59:00.002+08:00

why is a simple goodbye in different places mean so different.
shouldn't all goodbyes mean the same and feel the same?
Why does the "Goodbye" in the airport means more of a sadness?
and
Why it does not feel like the same as the one we use to say everyday even though they still mean the same.

Thinking

2010-07-15T14:12:00.002+08:00

Thinking again..
Thoughts in my mind again...
Is it that I just can't accept the fact, or there's something waiting to be done?
Sunked in them again.
blah blah blah...

Typical

2010-03-13T00:41:00.003+08:00

Ah... typical me again
Lazy to update my blog
I didn't update it for I also dunno how long
just... WHAT should I write here?
what i ate for dinner?
or, what class is like today
so boring....

then,
I'm not a sentimental person
I can't write my feelings beautifully
Well, when i try to, it actually turns out quite stupidly written
so, I just dun try to write, hence, no updates

oh! btw
I failed paper f4, law
and i passed the other 2
which makes me in quite trouble now
4 papers to take this sem
tonnes of study, tonnes of revising, tonnes of understanding and tonnes of memorizing

and which out of all those
what I actually did was
tonnes of slacking... that's all

Well, life is boring,
my blog is boring,
and so am I...
I am childish which I hope I can erase that out of my system
but it just, or I just don't know how to be matured
thus equals boring...

ZzZzzzz.....

Sin

2009-10-31T01:56:00.003+08:00

I know I should be asleep by now. Actually, I was sleeping, lying on my bed, waiting to fall asleep. But just before I fell asleep, I thought of things I did wrong, decision I did which where quite foolish and made a BLACK spot in my life. Even though it is a few year later and I should be talking about it and laughing about it, but me, I felt even worst and stupid and idiotic.

It made a black spot in my past and not something to be proud of. Now, I just dun want anyone to mention about anything of it, not even a word. I just hope time can be turned back to that moment and let me make things right. But I know it is impossible, so as a weird part if me, I really hope everyone will just forget about it and never ever mention about it forever. But, the biggest problem is, those foolish moves had become one of my biggest nightmare. Please, DONT EVEN ASK ABOUT IT.

So, it made me thought and thought.
I found out sometimes I'm just such a jerk. I force my friends to do things they dont want to. I fell so selfish and ashame of myself. AND if anyone if you reading this post here had been force by me to do anything you dont want to, I sincerely appologise. I just don't know what I was doing at that moment.

For 19 years of my life, I found out that I really cant do anything thinking at the 1st moment things happen and I'll just do or say stupid things. All the thinking comes after I do or say. I tried to think before doing or saying, but my brain just freeze. Nothing comes out at the first moment and I had to react, or else the scene will not be able to continue.

All of those things that I had done had now become my biggest fear. I just cannot let it go, I dont know why it just stick to my brain and I'll remember about it now and then. I really can feel the sinfulness. It doesnt feel nice.

I really want to apologise to everyone of you for anything that I had said, done, caused anyone of you to be angry of me. Please kindly tell me about what I had done. You can call me or msg me to tell me. I'm ready to hear things I did that makes you dont like me ( I know no one can make everyone to like you, but I just want to know so that I wont be repeating the same mistake ). I need help to be a better person. Telling me can really help me to change. If in the future I still do things like that, please tell me so I'll know what to do and what not and stupid to do.

*This post is not specifically for any person but really for all of my friends.

Always as it is

2009-10-07T21:13:00.001+08:00

despite all that i wrote...
i'm tired...
i want to rest

2 October 2009

2009-10-02T22:43:00.004+08:00

It's october now. 2 more months to my finals again... Really wondering now, why t.h. I chose this hectic program. Lecturers always tell us ACCA=no life, and I know that this is the truth, but I am still refusing to give up my life and change it into studies.

Now, I start to dream. (Hey, I know it's dreaming, but still have to have a dream before getting motivated, right!?!? )I dream of my future. Just a few weeks ago I thought of going to a vacation in Club Med, then out of no where, I have a thought of working there! How random. Now, I start to collect my motivations. I know it's a bit late and getting over CAT, you might think I don't need to get motivated and instead, I SHOULD BE motivated a long long time ago. But guess what? I hated CAT from the begining and I slacked through the whole process. I was wasting all my time on useless stuff, watching tv, doing nothing, etc and still am wasting some of my time, but at least I myself felt that I have a dream now. I want to graduate in june 2011. I am pending on my long vacation after ACCA! Even though I'm still lazy now, but I feel the "want" to study now. I want to plan my long vacation. I want to enjoy it. AND that's why I must study now. After the vacation, I want to find myself a job, no matter what is that, I want a job, I want to wear formal clothes to work(i know the last one sound a bit lunatic).

So, now onwards, no more failing. I want to get my first class OBU and it has to be an average of not less that 69/68/65(I don't know the marks, but I'm giving myself a 70). After the F level, I want a prize in P level. Gold, Silver, Bronze, either one will be good. Hahaha~ I know it sounds a lot too over. Doesn't sounds like what I'm capable of. But, that'll be always my dream and I'll have to kick some ass to do that! This batch of ACCA grads only have 117 of them in sunway, and I really hope one day I can be one of them! Hopefully it'll be granted in 2011. Let's pray for me(to study real hard).

But! I still want a life while achieving that. A life of my own, not just books, studying, highlighting, underlining, answering... I still want to hang out with friends, relax and last but not least, sleep early(hahaha).

Ahem... so, I think I have nothing more to write now...

signing off for now~

Results

2009-08-16T23:19:00.002+08:00

I'm nervous of getting my CAT results
I'll be either progressing with my friends, which everyone hopes for, or go back to CAT, which I think no one wants it.
What should I do with tomorrow?
Can I just skip it? without knowing the results and continue with everything I'm having now??

After I get the results, I'll be making a To-Do list!
I'll promise myself to follow it, strictly!
People, just support me, okay?
Please do not break my good spirit before I even try about it!
I need to turn over a new leaf!

UpdateS!

2009-08-16T23:10:00.005+08:00

hi!
i'm updating!
HI!
i know... it's been one month since i update
It's not that I don't want to update,
just don't know what to write up here
I'm not a story teller
maybe i'm just used to keep opinions and forget about them

OKAY!
so!
I went hiking at Broga Hills with brenda, jett kyii, kelly tan, elaine, kee hoong, etc(not going to list everyone) on friday morning, after sunrise!! lol
It was FUN, but tiring!
thanks to my bad stamina
i walked for about 5 minutes and had to rest
then walked for another less than 5 minutes and rest again!
lmao!
that's the result of not exercising for the past 10 years=no stamina!

So, after that hiking experience, I told everyone I'm not going for the second time!
But, I think I'll still be there for the second time and complain again!! HAHA

No photos yet... I have not put them in my computer yet. Maybe later.

The first time I get to go home the first after going out with my college friends.
Because Brogo Hills is so near to my house!!! hahaha!

Now, my aunt want to bring me hiking in the Sungai Long Hills!
Just wait till I get my stamina back first!

FIRE

2009-06-11T23:51:00.004+08:00

it's all gonna be about fire in this post
i'm gonna tell you how bad is malaysians in acting on emergecies
for eg, a fire

it just happened today~
today morning!
at about 5am
at my CONDO, 9 floor below my block, luckily it was the other side of the block~
PHEW....

ok~ i'll start the story
it'll be quite detailed...

5am
my mum woke us up in a very serious tone
EH WAKE UP A! THERE A FIRE! FASTER!
my reacting was... har?really a? u serious????
of course i woke up, saw at my mum panicing, packing the important stuff
AND also smelt the smoke
then I went like.... okay, what should i do now?(went blank for the moment)
THEN only i started to change(i'm not gonna appear downstairs in my PJ!),
then took some important stuff in my bag
and that time, my mum was on the stairs taking the important stuff
i was standing there with my big brother and he just reacted the same way i did
my father told him to take his wallet, passport(cause his gonna back to singapore to work),etc stuff
my mum was still looking where she put the passports, those thing, ON THE STAIRS....
haiz.... what a waste of time... if the fire was near, we'd be so crisply cooked already
summore i got time to use the toilet before leaving my house
about 30 mins later, i think... only we went out of the house...
btw... we did wet some towels to cover our nose when needed

now we were suppose to head for the stairs, but instead
we went to the lift
bro"eh! lift still working ler! so now we're going to walk or take the lift"
me"walk la! this kinda thing happen suppose to walk stairs de ler!"
mum"take the stairs la!"
*btw, my house is on the 19 floor

so, we took the stairs
and half way, someone asked"take all the important stuff edi?"
mum"yar! i take everything edi!"
and"eh! wait! i forgot my own purse~!!! it is still inside my handbag!"
me"==....I'll go back and take it for u!"
so... i ran back and took it for her, ran back down the stairs to meet up with them

we reached ground floor, saw some ppl there... but not all
other were either were not told or they din want to go down... dunno la
went to see what happened and the fire was out, but still were some smokes coming out
and we saw ppl near the fire area still in their house...
they are so near and still inside...

luckily it wasn't a big fire
luckily a auntie from another block saw it and the security guard heard the first explosion
luckily the security guard went into the house the pull the 2 gas tanks out of the house
luckily the house owner and the guard put out the fire asap

the place on fire was just beside the gas tank!
what if the gas tank is still inside!
those ppl still in their house are really lacking emergency knowledge
tell u ppl... better go to the web and brush up ur emergency knowledge
then when something happens, u know how to reach.
u just might be killed just because of that~
u just dont know....

and...
just what a "good" way to start of a morning right?
at least i still get to joke with my family downstairs about urselves....
and... i wanted to take pictures of the bomba guys and the car
but... the sky was dark, just got hp camera, flash not good....
took one, but cant see, so deleted edi
i was so near to the bomba engine!
what a waste... could have taken some good pictures... lol

7am
at last i get to go back to my house, my bed
and sleep again...

just
WHAT A WAY TO START OFF A HOLIDAY
can't wait for redang now

H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.

2009-06-11T23:37:00.004+08:00

YeaH!

holiday at last~

this holiday,

i'm gonna learn my guitar and shake off some fats!

hope i will do as what i said~

just like everytime... i just say... but never actually start doing~

hehe~ i know... my bad

me lazy lazy...

cause i haven even asked for the guitar classes price~

the centre also i haven choose!

hehe~ slacking all around....

BUT!

i promise myself, i'm gonna learn guitar!

starting this holiday!!!

it's a part of my holiday plan!!

FOR SURE!

ME and my PRE-exam sickness

2009-06-01T11:35:00.003+08:00

just as the title...
me and my preexam sickness....
i really hate to study....

pls la~~
study hard...
just pass the three papers for now!!!
haiz...

the end

TaG

2009-05-19T22:24:00.002+08:00

after showing my EMOness here...
i think i should stop by ONE post...
hehehe
so... lets do a tag

Tagged by marcus aka yin hao

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
har~ never get kissed before, how I know o?

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ?
don't want to get up but got up and went to T7 class because finals is on 2 of june

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with ?
erm... elaine? HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELAINE!

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled ?
yes... being the youngest child, i considered myself very spoiled

5. Will you ever donate blood ?
NO! i'm afraid of pain...

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?
Yar...

7. Do you want someone to be dead ?
I'm not that bad to want someone to die! Just don't let me see him/her, that's all

8. What does your last text message say ?
haha! this is easy!
it was
OKAY!^^

9.What are you thinking right now ?
going to sulee's house to study tomorrow...
sulee, hope u can let me go kacau u la! but i know u dun come to my blog de! XD
i'll ask again tmr

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right now ?
yes. but if u mean someone as a specific person, then NO, cause... dun have

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
erm... 11?

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
haha! wearing pyjamas!
the most ideal place to buy it~ PASAR MALAM

13. Is someone on your mind right now ?
No...

14. Who was the last person who text you ?
Vormie...

TEN Lucky Person to do this
1. kelly ho
2. brenda
3. dini
4. wilson
5. freda
6. audrey
7. kim neo
8. yinx
9. chea ying
10.weng kee

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with ?
Don't have I suppose~ XD
but if scandal, then got~ quite a number! o.O

16. Is no.3 a male or a female ?
female

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good?
NO! both are femaleS
I don't think they will want to be together!

18. What is no.1 studying about ?
CAT

19. When was the last time you chatted with them ?
1-5, today
other, long time ago

20.Is no.4 single ?
yes

21. Say something about no.2 .
motherly~ XD
she's my "mother"~

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together ?
not too good~

23. Describe no.9
er~ she's a fun friend~^^

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight ?
hahaha, they wont fight de la!
OH! or maybe they will! audrey, i just stand aside and wait for u can a?

25. Do you like 8 ?
yar~ too bits~ ^^

i cant!

2009-05-12T21:41:00.002+08:00

actually~
i cant
i cant focus

and the fact hurts a lot
my parents dun support me
and it hurts

they don't like it
but i am the one who is living with my life
not them
why just cant they understand about this fact?

they cant be here living my life forever
i am the one living my life
why just i cant live the life i want?
why?
why do i have to suffer with my life with their choice?
why?

audition

2009-05-11T20:02:00.003+08:00

as u already know that i am not satisfied with my life
and i am not studying for some unknown reason
after thinking and thinking and asking for some friend's opinion
so i've decided to go for an audition for Halo Forest's 1st acting class
if u don't know what is Halo Forest u can click here to find out about it

i didn't tell my parents that i were going for the audition
just some friend that i asked opinion for
AND i went alone there in a saturday morning~

so.. about the audition
i screwed it up in front of the teacher/judges
screwing things up... just the thing i would be doing
something expected
i tried to giv my best while screwing it up too!
how hard right... with my stage fear all those....
so... at that moment...
i told myself that i would 100% study hard for my ACCA!
and giv it all my heart...
these acting/star thing is just not my thing and i have no talent...
haiz... how sad

so...
today...
their people called me...
just like about 8pm
told me.. they recruited me for the acting class!
after i screw things up! how great~
but i' having my exams on june and i would like to focus on it....
so... i had nothing else to do but to reject the offer...
how sad~ a sort of dream come true thing just basically flew away...
haha~
and now... i can really focus on exams edi~ ^^ better wish me luck~

btw rm30 for the audition is really worthy~
i get to find the answer i had always wanted...

letting go

2009-05-06T23:20:00.003+08:00

letting go of something is really hard...
in fact, I'm in trouble of that
I'm having trouble of letting go of decisions made 2 bloody years ago
I hope everyday that time could turn back
I hope that I get to stand by myself
but the FACT is time is still running away and I still cant stand by myself
How bad is it when you yourself cannot do what you think you should be doing
Afraid of being laughed
Afraid of how people thinks
Afraid of being the odd one with odd thinking giving stupid ideas
Afraid of wasting time and indeed wasting time now
Afraid of choosing and now hating what people choose for you

It really sucks when your parents ask you to choose when they already choose for you and actually is asking you to choose what they choose for you yourself
I know. The words are a bit complicated and long.
shorten it=
parents choose the way for you and force you to take it
easy enough?
how great are my parents....
told them since I was a bloody holly naive shitty child, teenager, whatever that I dont want to be an accountant
and now WHAT!
I'm future to be ACCOUNTANT~ so, YEAH! *claps claps
haiz.... talking to them is so hard...
just because I dont know how too...
I really suck in communicating....

I am the youngest in the family... u can say that I am being headstrong...
I can tell you, YES I AM
and I am going to blame them when they say I'm wasting my time
if I am counting, they've wasted my time since I got into secondary school....
and I am indeed pissed off of their so many ways of wasting my time...
I cant even sleep when these things come around my head!
I get so angry and furious until I cant go to sleep
I really blame them for making who I am now~
so coward, lack of opinion, timid, lost

there is so many things, so many that i hate until i cant list~
but guess what.... I still love them, as my parents...
I still love them

(i am so off the topic)

actually I wanted to say that I cant let go the fact that I gave up senior 3
and since I gave up on that, I have been wasting my time until NOW and still going on~
people might think I got my direction,
but the truth is I never had one
until now I regreted like HELL to listen to my family
I really really shouldn't have listen to them!
and I know that is the reason that is stopping me from studying and demotivating me
I get really really depressed of that
that is why I quit SAM and the reason why I hate ACCA
I really should have got back to you all when I quited SAM
NOW, this moment right now,
everyone had graduated, everyone is on their direction
and I'm still in the same place since 2007
I've stopped....

blogging

2009-04-12T21:29:00.002+08:00

PROs and CONs of me blogging

PROs

ppl will giv me advice and tell me to be happy
i share my moments with ppl....

CONs
i only blog about emo things... so ppl seeing this will think i'm such an emo freak....

haha~ that's all i can think of for now~

btw... i hate ACCA, CAT....

=)

loving

2009-04-09T22:25:00.004+08:00

people,
love your life when u can
enjoy the life you love

how i hope i can do that now

i hate my life now
hate it so much
that i can crush it and throw it away without looking back~
HATE IT SO MUCH...
HATE...
just feeling like letting everyone down...
even myself... just let me sink to the bottom

really never ever hated my life so much before
by the way, i'm still just 18 going to be 19....
how young to hate my life....

update

2009-04-05T23:14:00.002+08:00

updates...
1.
the carnival is officially over now~
^^ so happy~
it was hot that day
and NOW,
my legs have 2 colours because of wearing slippers...
so ugly~ haiz

2.
i fail my audit again...
37.6... something like that
as dini said... if u google my name...
u can see me failing audit...
u can go see... i dun care actually...
not actually such big shame to fail it...
because u come take la! if u pass only u tell me it's a shame...
audit is very hard for me la!
haiz....

3.
i hate ppl i consider just normal friends hugging, touching me...
just have the "yucks" factor to me...
so uncomfortable and i hate it....
summore i'm not so close as u think you are...
sien la!
especially opposite sex
yiu!

just go away~

Colour A Child's Dream

2009-03-25T23:12:00.002+08:00

yoyoyo~
ppl!!

there's going to be an charity event on this saturday!!!
what is what?
earth hour??
NO! earth hour at night, this is in the morning till noon!!!

IT'S

Colour a Child's Dream Charity Carnival!
8-3pm
Sunway University College field

if you want to know more,
u can go to
http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/event.php?eid=53816413143&ref=nf

make sure you are coming to the event okay!
it'll be real FUN~

anyone wants to come??

習慣

2009-03-17T21:59:00.002+08:00

看到朋友的Blog
她講她中學畢業了四個月，不習慣

想到自己
離開了整整一年多
還是很不習慣

爲什麽就是不能向前走呢？
那一步好像真的很大，
要用很多很多的勇氣去跨那一步~
幾時？

i read my friends blog
she graduated from high school for 4 month
she said she's not used to it

not only her...
even me~ i'm not used to it even i left for a whole year
a whole big fat year and i'm still not used to it

really don't know why i haven move on
just a step for me
but really need a lot of courage to move that step
when?

tMr

2009-03-17T21:26:00.003+08:00

tmr...
exam edi...
sien~

i haven study
worse~

i'm not even logged in to study mood~
really curious about do i have the study mood in me!
hahaha~
ok~ worst~

see la! fail 3 papers again! kena BAR from exam then really dai sei de la!
haiz~

darn

Quiz TesT~

2009-03-13T18:23:00.003+08:00

looked at my friend's blog and decided to take the quiz~^^

1.Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

2.The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

3.Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

4.The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

5.Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

6.The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

7.How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

8.What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

9.Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

go try it out urself~
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

FC

2009-03-09T21:55:00.003+08:00

damn damn damn!!!
i hate AUDIT!!!!

i hate it!!!
HATE!!!
freaking HATE!!!

just like how i hate soya beans, tomato, onions, ginger, etc etc!!!
DAMN!!!!

i'm gonna have it as a JOB!
i'll most probably KILL myself before 30!!!!
ASHOLE.... SUCK!!!!
and i'm studying accounts!!!
DAMN!!!

DAMN IT!!!!
HATE IT!!!!
WHY MUST I BE DOING IT!!!!!!

NOT HAPPY

2009-03-07T23:28:00.000+08:00

arh....
i'm not happy again...
AGAIN...
darn it~

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2009-03-05T23:12:00.003+08:00

sometimes,
it is just so good when there's the someone who comes just on time for you to talk to
and the someone just came on the right time...
it just lets out the frustration for u had for a long time
really felt better edi..
even though din really help out the situation
but still~
thanks ya Mark L...

specially dedicate this post to you ler~
even though you wont come here and read this

skilLs

2009-03-05T19:29:00.002+08:00

skills are things that we learn since we are born...
there's a chinese saying states that
we learn till we are old

yes... that's true...
in this cruel society
we really need skills
such as communication skills...
something i'm actually quite bad in

aiks....
how i wish i can communicate with everyone...
just so hard to talk to ppl u're not familiar with

boRing....

2009-03-04T21:40:00.006+08:00

life is boring
college is boring
books are boring
even I am the boring one...
boring personality... boring topic... lame responses
yes... it's me... don't know how to start some topic with ppl...
dum...

and this is what happens to boring ppl...

taking photo everywhere! XD

my standing turtle.... BLEU

oi, i take you a~

come! look over here....

say cheese! haha...

this is what happens when ppl take ur shot and u're embaressed....

so... next time, to avoid shots that u don't fancy... look to the camera! haha

-TheEnd-

do you know yourself?

2009-02-26T22:42:00.002+08:00

do u know who u are?
i know i don't really know myself
but i do know i'm 19 this year
wow... big edi huh~
that's what i thought
for me... 19
i haven got drunk
i haven had a relationship with anyone for more than a month
i haven went to a bar, pub, disco, etc

i'm gonna pass my teen age...
ah... i'm gonna be an adult edi...
haven done anything crazy yet...

i'm just such a rational person i think...
i know what i'm doing sometimes...
i just wont put myself into trouble when i dun want to
but when i want to... i really get myself some crap all around
i just know what i'm doing...
why? i'm just a pussy cat who afraid of trouble...
i'm not brave... that's all

and what i do know abt me is...
i hate ppl controlling me...
why? try being under control of ur parents for 19 years and u know it'll not stop there
u wont want ur friends, relatives, teachers, any more other ppl to do that too...
i found out i really get angry sometimes...
angry like wth, it's none of ur business type of angry
stupid right?

迷惑

2009-02-10T20:54:00.003+08:00

迷惑又來了。。。
很煩。。。
考試又來了。。
很煩。。。
真的很不想考試。。。
真的。。。
突然很想聼聼尊孔朋友的聲音。。。
很想念你們。。。
你們在哪裏？
爲什麽我找不到你們？
每次遠遠的看到你們，追上去的時候已經不見了。。。
明明就在眼前又消失了。。。
很害怕。。。
很害怕會失去你們。。。
爲什麽大家都分開了呢？
告訴我。。。
告訴我我是不是不應該離開的。。。
結果傷害的只是自己
傷得太重了，很痛

YoyoyO~

2009-02-01T21:34:00.002+08:00

happy chinese new year!

how's ur angpow fortune?

mine looks okay...^^

best time of the year RIGHT!!!

i gambled! did you??

the chinese tradision!

muahahha~

urh... and my weight...

it broke the machine!

>.<

i'm now officially overweight...

my tummy is causing me problems...

HUNGER

ok...

i updated not because of CNY

just because i thought about this just now

going over to england after CAT

sounds so impossible...

look so impossible...

why? the cause of the financial crisis~

aih... i know what u're gonna say

JiangWen u so rich~ why cannot...

HELLO... me.. not rich...

my daddy... not rich also...

if i'm rich, do u think i'll still be here by now?

i should be in somewhere like ausi, NewZ, UK, USA already...

just my parents were clever enough to save for my education

and not gamble nor waste off the money

doesn't make me rich...

uH~ how i hope it would lar~

why just money can't give birth to money?

hatE!

2009-01-11T22:04:00.002+08:00

i hate my blog!
hate it when the spacing doesn't work!
hate it when i can't put a cross in the middle of my words!
stupid blog!

Sold Out babey!

2009-01-10T17:15:00.000+08:00

YES!

i'm talking about sold out!!

not me la of course~

who wants me??? >_<
my SAM books la...
i sold them and earned CASH!

at first
i wanted to use it to buy
1. the mickey mouse shoes i've wanted
2. the sunglasses i spotted few month ago

but now...
i think it'll be used for

T8 & T9
READING MATERIAL

aiks... pathetic me
turning into some sort of ppl who see studying so important
i tell u BOOKS...
u better be worth it!

or else...
just think what i'll do with U!
shopping just have to wait till another time...

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BEWARE!

nEw yeaR, new mood?

2009-01-05T22:11:00.002+08:00

it's a new year
but i'm still in CAT

regretted to be in this course b4
and
i'm sure i'll be thinking bout that again
when it comes to exams and difficult times

this is what happens when it's not what u want
and when u dunno what u want

sounds wise and somehow stupid also

when that thinking comes...
i really feel like dropping the course and take other things
like tourism, performancing arts
tourism is because i hope to travel
and anotherone is because i can do something related to the tv series
since i like spending time on TV so much

but~
both of their money future is not so seeABLE

money minded me... haiz

suShi day~

2008-12-26T21:29:00.004+08:00

sushi day!!!
the best day ever!
sushi day~
this time we were on time...
but the shop was half open again...
and the door was locked...
hyMphMhHmmm
have to wait again....

the filling of the sushi were way more than sushi king's
sushi king always give little bit...==
maybe this is because it's a smaller shop?
or just sushi king is stingy~
summore almost same price also...

after that went to pavillion
for J.Co donut
wasn't my first time eatting that
but my first time to queue up and buy

a delicious, watery mouth day GONE

tmr, i have to go change my braces...

haiz... 2-3 days without nice food again

aIyoH! everything about food

no wonder i'm still having a tummy

don't hate me...

2008-12-21T00:49:00.002+08:00

the title is JUST for not updating the blog...
it's not like i dun want to
just
too lazy to
HAH!
ok... fine... it's also a kind of dun want to
procrastinating like usual

okay!

NOW

let me update you with my holidays activities

i went genting with my college friends..
it was a wednesday!*first week of holiday
and it was real FUN!
i dared to play the roller coaster!
*for ur information~ i'm afraid of heights and the moment the rollercoaster falls down! HATE IT
it's also named "cork screw" up there
and i played twice!
both with strangers! haha
and i talked to both of them! XD
and basically i forced a guy to scream with me! and he did!
and the conversation goes like this

me: u sked or not?
guy: er... no
me: i very sked o....are u going to scream later?
guy: no
me: scream lar! scream with me. i'm sked and if u dun scream with me i will not dare to scream
guy: er... okay la... i scream with you

i know i know...i'm kinda stupid right! haha

and then i was afraid of the cable car! wth!
and it wasn't what i was afraid of the last few times!

AND then dun really remember anymore thing happend that week

then it comes to this week~
i was busy since wed again till fri...

WED-
went to six uni college in subang area for some info
went with a friend
just because UEC results came out and needed to get into studies
not me... my friends...
and i had to drive to six different places! although they are near by to each other

THURS-
went out with 2 of my friends
and guess what!
i was suppose to leave my house at 10
But~ i woke up at 11
wth right! i know!
we went for branch, the sing karaoke, dinner
and just these few events, i left my house for almost 12 hours...
OMG....

FRI-
went for ICE SKATING!
hahahahahahahha~
wanted to learn from a coach...
but due to my "not knowing what to do" and "hate to decide things" attitude
the learning plan failed~
maybe next time la...
and i fell down ONCE
not because i suck at skating
it's because the professional skater was practising her moves and there were too many ppl around
she banged me at my back
i couldn't balance and fell
*well, i dun really think anyone could actually balance and not fall
so.... my butt hurts, my hand hurts and now, my leg hurts too

and today~
my brother came home from singapore and is going back again tmr
i ate my tang yuan
i like it and it was better than last year
went to mid valley and sat at coffee bean again doing nothing

sOoOoOooooo....
i've already update for two weeks! hehe

AND! i'm now officially free for 24th of december...
if there's any party~ invite me pls...

tq~

and gud nite

exam's done!!!

2008-12-07T22:34:00.001+08:00

exam is donE!!!
so NICE!!!
stress free now~
at least for this week!
and i'm off to genting on wed!!! yes!!!
so happy now!!
movies~ here i come!!

eXamSsss...Sss..sss

2008-12-02T12:09:00.000+08:00

uHuh....
i'm back...
stress is still on
t6 has gone
left three on run

t6 was fine
every thing went well
just didnt know if i did right
but passing wont be a problem

the failing one would be t5
i guess im right
from not studying it

and

i hate it

壓力

2008-11-22T20:51:00.002+08:00

救命啊！！！
現在很有壓力！
喘不過氣了！
我不要再聽到考試，讀書，考試，讀書！
不要再叫我讀書！！！
我真的很怕很怕了！！！
媽媽！你不要再叫我讀書了！
我很大壓力！
救命啊！！！
救救我！

swImmIng

2008-11-15T14:32:00.002+08:00

YEs! i went swimming...
erm...exactly... swimming + playing in the water
was suppose to reach there by 8.30, but was late~
for like what! 10 minutes like that only la...
met up with jessica and dini...
walked to the front door of sun-u residence trying to go in, but the guard blocked us...
haiz...
din really want to talk to him,cause after talking to him sure cannot go in!
sad case.... humPh...
he din let us go in but we still manage to get in because he wasn't even looking at us when we were sitting on the bench behind the guard house!
we gathered, changed into swimming suits and went in the pool~
my GOD! the water is definetely cold lar!!! i was the last one to get myself wet!
just TOO COLD....
okay~ now i'm lazy to explain about the whole thing... go see dini or kelly ho's blog... the whole story is there....
but i have to say! SORRY brenda! because... i din mean to try to get ur phone wet!
it din really got wet la... but... i almost wet her hp! hehe
sorry!

毕业了！

2008-11-12T12:11:00.002+08:00

毕业的不是我。。。
是你们~
我知道你们应该都不会来这里看的啦。。。
可是还是要写一下~
看着一个应该有我在里面的毕业典礼，心情很复杂。。。
很开心你们毕业了我也在那里看着，也很遗憾不能成为里面的一份子
以后不能一次看见你们全部人了，要真的聚在一起也难
以后呢想找一个借口回学校也不能了
不能再看见你们了
以后大家各分东西，走着自己的路，踏上自己人生的旅途！
很开心你们能让我参与，真的谢谢你们！
我没有哭哦！我很坚强吧！其实，只是该哭的都已经哭过了，没有你们那么伤心罢了
你们的笑声，你们的疯癫，你们的声音，你们的拥抱，我都会永远记住的！

bReaK~

2008-11-07T23:34:00.002+08:00

i'm tired...
give me a break!
so tiring these days...
every single day, i feel tired~
dun want to get out of the bed...
i just love how it smells! XD
no lar~ joking jer~
actually, i love how it feels~ hehe... big, soft, comfortable, with my beloved pillows, bolster, blanket.... okay~ i boast enough about it now!

it'll be happy enough getting in my blog hence no more bad dreams for me okay! =)

OH!

btw

remember i told you i need a break?

i'm in it NOW~ X)

emoING

2008-11-07T11:02:00.004+08:00

oh gosh~ looks like i sound a bit emo...
haiz... cause i was real angry that time? hehe

i think i should stop blogging for sometime...
exam is coming and i am still not studying...
haiz! i should have started very early

and

now...
have to

study

study

study

not joking~ but hope i can do what i say~ hehe

now i can find an excuse to not update my blog! wahahaha

i'm pisSed!

2008-11-06T23:30:00.005+08:00

okay! i'm pissed now!
now! i'm just the non important person in the home!
the important one is the one who will share his problems and telephone back home!
yes! i'm not so important after all!

just because i'm here his there!

FINE!

i know!!! i'm just the manja girl...
who always make nonsense...
who also bring problem...
who also have stupid ideas...
who also have stupid dreams ...
who wants to do dangerous thing like car racing that will most probably risk her health and life...
who will never share her problems or even just seek for opinion...
who will never remember to call back home when she is out somewhere far...
who's not able to make her own decisions on her own even she is a 18 now...
who's not going to be able to live some place except HER HOME ...
who's not going to be able to live alone..
etc etc

if i can die like that easily, then i am risking my life now just because of living U KNOW! it's so dangerous in this world with dieases, inccidents, accidents, etc etc! i would probably die the NEXT FREAKING SECOND!

just have to follow the path u choose! everything u think is GOOD! AND how dare u tell ppl u are giving me 100% freedom when i cannot even go out late, clubbing, drinking, travel on my own...even playing snooker is BAD!

U never knew that doing like this will make our relatives laugh at me!
and i dun like to be laughed at! DO YOU EVER KNOW THAT! i hate to be laughed at! i SERIOUSLY HATE THAT
i'm so protected that they even call me WWF(a non profitable organistion who protects animals)
I HATE WHO I AM!
i hate that i cannot decide my life
i hate that i don't know what i want
i hate that u are making me so materialistic until i know money is not everything but without money i'm nothing
i hate that i'm actually studying something that i put it in the "NOT TO DO" list when i'm small
i hate that i dun have my own choice
i hate that i'm so lost and dun even know who i am
i hate that i can't concentrate when i need to study like NOW
i hate that i never ever get praised when i get 100 marks for my exam
i hate that you said that 100 marks was what i was suppose to do
i hate that i'm having a so comfortable life until i'm so lost in no where!
i hate that i cannot argue with you and will start having tears
i hate that i will just simply start to cry when i am suppose to tell you my thoughts of my choice
i hate that u also think that you are the best model for others
i hate that u never knew that you were wrong
i hate that u think i'm actually liking what i'm doing
i hate that i'm not as smart as him
i hate that we are all going to end up the same
i hate that i'm going to step into the boring office life with countless of OTs
i hate that i cannot even choose what i want!
i hate that i know what you want me to be/do
i hate that my life is already sort of setted by you
i hate that i have to graduate so young and start working
i hat that i'm such a good girl when i am young
i hate that i cannot disobey what you tell me to do
i hate that i cannot support my own life to do what i want
i hate that i'm hating so many things already and it is not all

i hate everything in my life now!
i have no targets to achieve
i have no motivation to push me to study and i know money as the motivator is already not enough
i DUN KNOW WHAT I WANT
i want to just slack around until i know what i want! DO YOU EVER KNOW THAT

NOW! i even hate that i'm writing this over here and let everyone see this and know i'm such a clueless person for this 18 years i lived!

and hate that i just posted this...

tIred...

2008-11-04T19:36:00.003+08:00

today i had a class at 8am and was suppose to get out at 7,
but guess what
i WOKE UP at 7....

luckily i wasn't that late...
just a little bit late...
HuH... and i'm not to latest one to reach...
that's a big relief to me....

everything was fine until i start to feel seepy...
oMg... class can't be that boring!!!
yesterday wasn't how come today???
gosh... i quickly went home just for my pretty NAP....^^
halfway through, it RAINED heavily....
GOSH.... i really hate driving in rain, especially when i'm SLEEPY!!!

still i managed to get home safe.... hehe....

reached home, ate, watched tv and decided to read a book~
the stupid phone din rang for the that long period of time...

UNTIL i really can't open my eyes i went for THE nap
my freaking itiodic stoopitt phone start ringing...

sleeping...started my sweet dream.... THEN ring ring, ring ring ring.....
fine... first time... i'll pick it up....

then fall back to sleep....start dreaming again...THEN ring ring, ring ring...
@$&($&^*@ picked it up again....

then... i slept and dream again... it rang AGAIN!!!
it din end!
i went to sleep again and it just RANG again!!!!

when my parents came back it just dun ring... and when their gone i'm all alone... it will just basically ring and ring and ring and ring!!!
especially when i want to have a great comfortable enjoyable sweet NNNNNAAAAAPPPPP!

pls!!! giv me a break OKAY!!! i need my nap! suckers!!! dun phone my house when i'm sleeping!!! i hate you people and i will curse you to death!!! damn you!!!

it just simply happens ALL THE TIME!

maybe next time i will just simply pull off the telephone line, turn off my hp just for the peace for that little while~~

oFfIciaLly 18 !!!

2008-11-01T14:55:00.002+08:00

wahaha~
i'm officially 18 now!!!
i can do thing leagally now!!!
wahahah...
things like...
drinking?
erm...
other i duno la... i know drinking yer~ XD

but still~
i'm 18 now... hehe

thx guys for celebrating, greating, presents, etc etc...
THANKS ~

thX LL kelly~ XD

2008-10-27T19:39:00.008+08:00

for tagging me...
at least~ something to update with!

The Golden Rules:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how they relate to the questions.
5. Tag at least 5 people.

1. How are you feeling today?- complicated, avril lavigne
erm...went shopping with parents today was suppose to go out on 10 but went out on 10.30. REASONS? it's complicated~*blink

2. If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?-realised, Clobie Caillat
realised that... it'll be okay~

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?- free, elva 萧亚轩
it's free!!!!

4. Will you get far in life?-contagious, avril lavigne
erm... can someone tell me what contagious means?

5. What do you think about very often?-择偶条件(dunno how to translate this one), penny戴佩妮
oh crap! u just got me! sHhh... dun tell others... okay?

6. What is 2 + 2?- 挂在半梦半醒之间(half dreaming half awake), penny
eRrr... just like that lar! yor~

7. What's your best friend's theme song?
i accidentally erased this one when i was doing the spacing and din even realised~ so... cannot suddenly add some answer to this... so.... i think ppl tagged by me... you better dun forget about this question!!!

8. What is the story of your life?- 听袁惟仁弹吉它(listening to yuan wei ren play guitar),she
haha! it's actually quite inspiring of the lyric of the song

9. What is/was your high school like?-中国话(chinese),she
oH! u got me right~

10. What is your motto?-tell me why, nicky李玖哲
hahaha! it's always why why why

11. What’s the best thing about your friends?-angel, leona lewis
they are really my angels in my life =) luBbb... U~

12. What do you think of the person you like?-台北21度C(taipei 21 degree celcious), evan蔡旻佑
haha! it's where evan lives!!!! his my hubbY~ hahaha

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?- 未知数(unknown(the title of the song)), penny tai
it's just so true sometimes

14. What do you think of when you see the person you like?- the 1st time ever i saw ur face, leona lewis version
hmMM... the lyrics relates so good with this question! XD

15. Describe your grandparents.- homeless, leona lewis
IT IS SO NOT TRUE! they have place to live OKAY! HuHh... i'm offended! o.O

16. How's your life going?- everything back but you, avril lavigne
yes... my soul is not back yet~

17. What is your biggest fear?-LoVe ,elva
quite true? i usually doesn't know who i like, BUT i do know who i dun like okay!!!

18. What will be played at your funeral?- bleeding love, leona lewis
hahaha, so sad right~ i'm DEAD~ haha

19. What is your hobby/interest?-girlfriend, avril lavigne
oh GOSH~ i'm so gay *ops

20. Will you have a happy life?-飘着(floating), stephanie孙燕姿
it landing soon~

21. What do your friends really think of you?- in the beginning, evan
er.... we're still friends after the beginning?? right guys???

22. Do people secretly lust after you?-the best u never had, leona lewis
LUST means what???

23. How can you make yourself happy?-冲动(urge(that's what i found in the net!)), elva
HOW TO LINK??

24. Will you ever have children?-希区考克特作品152(alfred hitchcock's work 152) , evan
as what i found in the net, hitchcock is film director. he make mystery film~ therefore, the answer will be a mystery! wakaka

25. What song would you strip to?- 没有人要的孩子(a child that no one wants), evan
strip to?? means what? take off my clothes??? U CARZY AR!

26. What does your mom think of you?- hot, avril lavigne
ma thinks i'm HOT! *wink joking jer

27. What do you think of your parents?-honey honey honey, elva
u just dunno how much i love them~

28. What is your deep, dark secret?-better in time, leona lewis
eR~ i'll get better after some time??? Uh~ such an ackward explanation

29. What is your enemy's theme song?-complicated, avril lavigne
stOoopitTt...

30. What will you dance to at your wedding?-i'll be there, elva
dun worry~ i wont runaway.....i GuEss?

uHhhh~ i'm done at last~~~ why so many questions!!!! aiyor ~~
actually... i just found out... some song really do related very good!!!
i guess i listen to GREAT songs after all!!! hahahahha
okay~ i'm going to tag now~
1.yin sze
2.kelly ho
3.elaine
4.....
5.....

aiya~ dunno who to tag lar!

i'M doNe~

2008-10-25T15:06:00.002+08:00

yee ha!!!
mock is OVER~~

i screwed it~
cause i din study~
but... who cares?

what i do care now~~
pls~ i have to study hard to exam in december NOW~

no more procrastination~~

REALLY!!!

i hope i can do so~

haha~

so now HOLIDAY officially starts...
i mean... a one week holiday~
hehe

i'm looking forward!!!!

HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3~~
MAMMA MIA...
EAGLE EYE

and...
so many movies....

just waiting for me~~ ^^

yeeha!!

boreD~

2008-10-22T11:31:00.002+08:00

i'm bored~
tmr is MOCK

and

i'm still here
posting a new post

t3,t4,t5 will be domed...

i'll be failing...
can't even know what to crap about in the paper
i haven started studying
like what my friends did
(1-2 weeks ago)
i didn't

and

no one believes me
everyone thinks i'm bullshiting
everyone thinks i'm just joking
just no one believes me

and the truth is

i'm haven even started studying now
i hate it~
just~ believing me is just so hard~
so? does that means i'm not a truthful person?

i don't know
maybe i should just shut up~
KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT

right?

but!

i want to study, but i can't~
no MOTIVATION

picture story

2008-10-17T21:51:00.006+08:00

i'mlazytotype...
letthepicturetellthestory
nonarrationswillbegiven

rainbow

2008-10-13T19:57:00.004+08:00

today class was untill 6.30 but mr.jana let us go 15 mins early!
so nice of him~
but... there were traffic jam...
serious jam... haix....
i wonder why sometimes jam, sometime dun have jam...
maybe it started to rain... that's why

and the best part of all

i saw rainbow....

it's so beautiful!

one end of the rainbow

the whole rainbow

the other end

it's so beautiful!
i really can't remember when i last saw it...
i know... i know... u'll want to say it's because of my bad memory!
XD

well! i think i'll have to admit it~

because! today....
while i was walking to the college from the car park...
this stroke to my mind "OMG! did i lock my car or not!"
but i walked like about 5 mins edi...
and it's still early, so i went to class put my books and bag
then i walked back to my car...with a CD
when i reached my car,

it's LOCKED!

so, i opened it, put the CD and then locked it again and also pulled the car door~
just to strength my memory of locking the doors!

really dunno what to comment on what i'd done~
XD
so stupid!

neRvouS...

2008-10-12T22:44:00.005+08:00

exam is going to be here soon... i dun like this...
guess what... today i went to popular...
KL lee rubber that branch...
it had a sale for up to 70% discount...
because they are renovating and today is that last day...
i rushed there... bought pens, file and book...
OH MY! that's costy! >.< color="#ff9900">of the MOCK exam that's coming in i think 8 days
because i talked about you today
because my wall is leaking when heavy rain come and i just renovated my room! WTH
because i can't see you anymore anywhere
because i'm not studying and i finshed a book i bought today
because i'm thinking of someone i can't forget
because my bed got wet of the leakage
because i'm scared that you'll hate/ignore me for what i said
because i dun have the feel to study
because i just can't let you go off my mind
because i bang my car and a small part was out of shape
because i'm afraid i cannot forget you
because my room is not tidy, clean and still a mess
because i can't chat with you like before anymore
because i'm tired o myself for being a coward
because dun have the courage to call or even sms someone
because...... of you...

and i dun like them
i dun feel good not...
i think i am going to suffer as i'll will have problem sleeping today

how am i gonna study with you in my mind?
someone please help me...
or if i go see you? will it be better?

tagged...

2008-10-10T23:28:00.005+08:00

GreaT... i'm tagged... by LL kelly....

1. Who are you?
a human being like you...

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?
i dun have boyfriend now lar..... u tell me la.. who more important....

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
er... quite often when i am really sad..... and dissapointed....
that's bad... i know

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
nope.... i'm lack of it.... give me some pls

5. How many babies you want?
depends... 2-3 i think... but my mum ask me dun have any...

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
means what? HOPE? i know rainbow is nice... beautiful...

7. What is your goal for this year?
pass my exam... slim down before i go for vacation....

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
er... not now....

9. What's a perfect boyfriend like to you? (List 10)
handsome, cares about me, smart, bright guy, have good future, nice, outgoing, have a pair of pretty eyes, romantic, kind

10. What feeling do you love most?
know that i'm important to my friends...

11. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?
eyes that attract me? someone who loves me for who i am....

12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people you hate ?
firstly, tell me the reason you hate me... and if i do hate you too, then... forget about being friends... it's no way we can be friends... u passed my limits! GET LOST!

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
i DO! how about you?

14. What does flying means to you?
superman?

15. What do you crave for the most currently?
money, do what i want to do with the support of my parents by not saying i'm silly, stupid, idiot, wasting my time for doing such a thing, no worrys for the rest of my life

16. Who's hotter?Chace Crawford or Kevin Peake?
erm... who are they???

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
bright, nice, thoughtful, great, hardworking

18. What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
erm, i dunno... can't think of any now

19. If time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?
when i'm born... BUT come on lar... that's impossible right!

20. What are your fear(s)?
BUGS, WORMS, HEIGHTS(dun ask me to play things that goes up and down), FAILING EXAMS, BEING HATED, FOR BEING SO SHORT AND FAT

Instructions: Tag 8 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

People i tagged :
1)audrey TBC
2)yin sze
3)kimcurly
4)shu xian
5)eng yew
6)emily
7)freda
8)dini

people i tag... pls do the tag... PLS

hanDbAgs...

2008-10-09T23:42:00.004+08:00

holiday is over...
college start like 4 days ago...
technically... it's going to be 5....
i dun like it... neither anyone i know...
college is fun, but exams are boring...
i HATE them!
i HATE what i'm doing~
well... technically... that was what i dun want to end up with when i'm kid...
and NOW! after t5 class today... being an internal auditor, u might be kidnapped/robbed/killed/hated/etc etc bad things will happen... i hate it more!
that's because they check one everyone's work! everyone! small little errors will be caught and people making them will hate auditors...
this is just because THEY CAN'T CHEAT!
NO MORE EASY MONEY!

pls... i know everyone wants easy things...
BUT! you get them by cheating everyone, please... u'll pay for it okay and btw... u'll make other people suffer...
WAKE UP people!
the economic is so damn freaking bad just because of greedy people!
it's time to wake up! get back to the old days...
WHERE ARE PEOPLE'S PURE HEART...
U WERE BORN WITH THEM... DUN LOSE IT!

okay....

i know i crapped too much up there...

come back to today's topic...

HANDBAGS!

XD

http://www.handbagplanet.com/

get a free handbag there...
yinx emailed me once i think...(just based on my memory)
i think someone else did that too...
but i din care about it much...
since i'm not studying now... and i thinking going to bed a little later....
i'll just try on it! XD
a free handbag...
i stand a chance to win it,
(i hardly win free things, that makes me think i need to work hard to get whatever i want!)

how great can that be!
go take a look here okay!
If... iF! u really get it, maybe u can giv it to ur friends, mum, or even USE it... haha!

go and try ur luck! XD
who knows... u might be lucky!

miSs.inG

2008-10-04T10:30:00.004+08:00

i miss my friends...
college friends...
secondary school friends...
primary school friends...
even tuition friends...

i miss LL, ELL, kelly, dini, brenda, elaine, emily, etc, etc
i miss audrey, yinx, may may, lena, jiahui, etc, etc
i miss all of you!!! =(

missing people is not good for health okay~
no wonder i'm always so unhealthy~ XD
audrey, yinx when are we going out har??
haiz...

when can i see all my friends once... all together?

l.o.V.e

2008-10-02T21:00:00.002+08:00

just now...
this suddenly came to my mind...

LOVE~

people who love you will always love you...
theyll never not love you for what you had said

BUT
people who don't love will be really angry
and
will even hate you for little things that you do...

of course... dun try the patience of the people who love you too much
few times is OKAY... i think
but too much... it may get bad effect... you will not want that if you really care for them
don't you...

just like your beloved family and your friends... RIGHT??

this just suddenly came to my mind...
some little little mini thoughts of mine...
enjoy~

waiting for someone to love me~ i'm ready to love! XD

DyinG...

2008-09-24T20:31:00.003+08:00

dying slowly...
because of t5...
still can't remember a thing...
GREAT!

and i still have time to blog here... >.<>
no wonder my exam always fails
i never wants to study...
no motivation at all...

weird....

2008-09-21T00:43:00.003+08:00

see! that's what happens when i change to blogspot to be like my friends...
(if u dunno what i'm talking about... see the chat box)
and my other friends will feel weird....

always... these kind of things happens...
i change for one... the other one will feel weird...
i'm thinking... WHAT SHOULD I DO to satisfy people...
then slowly... i start to do things to satisfy people but not me myself...
slowly my life is about people but not me...
really... i found this out....
i start to feel now... my friends dun need me...
it's just me the one who is doing things and still think they need me...
but in the end... they dun really need me anywhere...
me... is the one always left out...
OR i rather say... i'm the one not joining them?
me myself... i dunno...
to them... i'm the other big group of people, not the small group of "i need u" people
i might feel sad but in the end... my conclusion is...
i'm the one who thinks too much...

NOW...
i would like to start on the i want, i want., i want situation...
i want to change it...
i would now rather be a freaking selfish person who only care about myself...
i would only want to know about me...
i shall not be afraid of being alone in a group of people...
suddenly i'm thinking... i dun need to entertain people...
i just need to entertain myself...
i know i won't ever try to hurt myself...
how would u hurt urself? tell me...
I is the important thing now...
friends? HA! it still depends...

ps: i know might sound a bit emo... but the truth is... who dun sometimes sound emo?

Happy BirthDAy~ LL kelly tan

2008-09-17T20:25:00.003+08:00

yeah! today's a HOLIDAY!
i was suppose to be home~
i was suppose to be sleeping till afternoon and do whatever i want!
BUT i have to go to the dentist~ HAIZ~ yer~
the greatest dentist ever!
i went to him on monday because the wire of the braces came off and had to fix it back~
everything was great UNTIL it end up POKING my mouth and i know it's going to be a ulser!
it hurts u know!
NOW! i have 3 ulsers... how GREAT~ haiz...
only got home with my parents at 5 something~
my PIG time gone... my FUN time gone... *sob sob

nvm... one holiday gone... that'll nothing serious... haha
haven update for 7 days edi...
just because i DUN HAVE time....
u believe? haha
i'll try to have sometime to update okay~ hehe

AND

tadadada!

TODAY
IS

LL KELLY TAN's BIRTHDAY!

happy birthday!!!
and we gave a surprise party yesterday~ XD
not gonna write it all over again... and i'm not really good in writing u know~
go to brenda, dini or elaine's blog to see the whole story okay?

got ta go now! BYE~

tagged by dear kelly HO~

2008-09-10T21:14:00.003+08:00

thanks for remembering to tag me...>.<''
shouldn't have go to ur blog... XD
sry to others if u'd tagged me but i din do the tag....

1. Six people to tag:
-yin sze
-audrey
-chea ying
-ei! my friends dun come read my blog... and those who come... done this tag edi lar...

2. Six things I’m passionate about:
-myself
-to be good in ONE if the sports that i know
-jeans that fits me good
-get a good rest after stressing myself
-the handsome guy i saw today!
-definetely FOOD

3. Six things I say too often:
-what the....
-shit(i know it's not nice but still it just comes out of my mouth)
-harRRr....
-dunno edi la... if u know u tell me la
-do uactually know that i'll just smile back to u if i dun hear what u said
-...

4. Six books I’ve read recently:
-t3
-t4
-t5
-t6
-one piece(it's actually a comic... found it on the dining table)
-books that are related for malaysian studies assignment(global warming punya summore)

5. Six songs I listen to again and again:
-prisoner of love(japanese song! i just LOVE it)
-take a bow(rihanna)
-love song(dunno whose one... always heard it in radio)
-stop and stare
- arvil lavigne's songs~ i just never get bored with her songs!
-others i forgot the name edi la!

6. Six things I learnt in the past year:
-try to follow my heart even though i really CARE about what people say especially my parents... it's just so hard for them to support what i want and i really dun have the will to challenge them
-really need to study damn fxxking hard now edi lar! CAT a... dun study?? DIE la...
-exercise more la.... to get healthy and keep fit! muahaha
-i really have to reaction to those guys that people say they are handsome and good looking but i dun find them really that nice... but for those whom i see handsome! i'll go crazy! XD
-i really need my friends around... without them i'm just not me... for those whom i dun see so often now~ i really really missed u guys....
-having someone who drives u everywhere u want is really a good thing... driving is tiring sometimes...

ps: hope my answers answered the questions.... sometimes i just too "good" enough to give wrong answers... just like what i "cleverly" did for exams....

unKnown tiTle...

2008-09-09T20:47:00.008+08:00

dunno put what title for this post...
very lazy to update myblog....even though it's just one simple post
just dunno what to write about...
not like my friends they can write very very well and super duper interesting...
haiz...
maybe that's why i can't write my essays during exam...
and they are always dreathfully low marks...

today... we dun have t3 class... so happy~
class will now end at 1.30 on tuesdays~ ^^
and friday will also only start on 11.30!
i get to sleep now~
after class today... went to eat at orange... still dun like there...
every time when come back from there sure smell oily... haiz
but.... no place to eat edi... only orange, medan, cafeteria....
and today... at last... B knows how which one is yee mee and which one is ban mee...
hahaha... XD hope she still remembers it and know what to order the next time...
and! we saw a girl playing the rubiks cube and someone was teaching her!!!
wanted to go and ask her to teach me also~ haiz... why i still cannot solve it? aih~
after eating went to library with kelly ho, jettkyii, brenda to finish the slide for the presentation tmr...
just hope it'll not be tmr~
*pray pray pray....

and dunno why these days class are still the same,
BUT
i felt sleepy and closed my eyes to REST!
just canot open my eyes....
and my jaw is hurting and my eye feel damn dry!
gerRr....it's like i start to become sick... i duno want!!!
PT2 is end of the month lar! YeR....
better wish to be more healthy and strong!!! =)

ps: time passes very fast... people known each other quite well now... true colours show... we accept what we accept and hate what we hate, but we're still FRIENDs...right? XD

and there might be people who start to hate me or dun like me...who knows...

blindfold my future

2008-09-07T23:20:00.002+08:00

i'm studying CAT now....
when i finished CAT... i will go to ACCA
in case u people don't know...
after if i get to graduate ACCA i'll be working and will be an accountant...
or... if u want, u can also be finicial counsellor or whatever thing related to what u studied la...
if dun want... can also be a boss geh...

as u can see... the above will be my future....
what my parents think of....
it's planned so nice.... not a flaw...
BUT guess what!
when i was a kid...
i told everyone i din want to become an accountant...
i DUN want to become an accountant!
i want to do something that is not related to accounts....
when i was in secondary school, i went to study in commerce class....
and now college i cannot do engineering, doctor or whatever that is related to science...
and, my science sucks...
so... when i finished my SPM still thinking about it...
ask my parents what to study they suggest those pre-U and CAT~
they'll tell me accountancy is better...
better future, better pay, better blah blah blah...
when i tell them i thought of studying psychology
they tell me! u know what job u'll be getting?
after grad. will get lower pay, dunno how's the future and blah blah blah... lots of unknown will be there....
i'm a materialistic person... money goes first in this world, so do i
i know money is not everything... but everything needs money...
that's what i was thinking about...
and now... i'm studying CAT and i have thoughts about it...
when it get harder i'll think...
am i in the right course? isit meant for me? do i really want this?
so many questions are bugging me...
really confused and dunno what is my future...
really hate to be unknown~

haPpy birThday emily~~~

2008-09-06T09:13:00.003+08:00

yesterday after class we went to play squash!
it's not really that hard to play~
but to be a pro! it's hard!
when i play with kelly ho and her very pro friends....
gosh! i din even get to hit the ball they serve!
at the end of the game.... i knew how to serve! haha!
and i liked it! it's better that volleyball to me!
after that we went to brenda's hostel, bath and then went to red box!
we started to sing and wait for emily and ashley~
half way when we're singing~ they came!
the music was turned off and ashley bring emily in with her eyes closed~
then when ashley took off the blindfold... we start singing birthday songs to her~
the surprise for emily is definetely sucessful! XD
i went home at 11.30
and when i reached... get scolded...
>.<

btw~
happy birthday emily!!!

loving is caring

2008-09-01T00:39:00.004+08:00

watched a japanese tv series~
haven finished it yet~
hope i can finished it quickily~
because
i have to start studying again!
CAT... nerd programme
i have to turn into a nerd!
and
OF COURSE.... nerds are now a very trendy thing to be!
if you want to trendy, be a nerd!! =)
muahaha! XD

loving~ loving is hard~~~i guess~
expecially when you love someone u weren't suppose to fall in love
can't do anything but just look at them
u will not dare to be too close but u dun want to be too far away~
u hope they will pay attention to you even though it is just for like 1 sec.
u hope to go through everything with them but you can't
so sad right!
haiz~
so! my advise~ better dun love someone you weren't suppose too!
if u are now~ then!
bad for you lor! hahaha!

okay! i better go to bed now~ it's kinna late edi

CheErs for the 1st

2008-08-31T13:58:00.000+08:00

ended pt1 yesterday~ it's just as bad as u can imagine...
it sucked... i totally ruined it~
sad case for me... huh~
nvm just cheer up now and wait till i get te result and mourn them

watch SEXANDTHECITY at night and i LOVED it~
love love love their friendship~
when someone has a problem, other will be there!
if u do have friends like that u really have to cherish it!
u won't know when u'll need them and when they need u~
if u don't have then... i'll advice u to love urself more~

guess i'll just write till here~
i know it's short but! at least i started a new blog~
and it's over here~ blogspot~ as ur wishes~

done for now....

xoxo