emoING

oh gosh~ looks like i sound a bit emo...
haiz... cause i was real angry that time? hehe


i think i should stop blogging for sometime...
exam is coming and i am still not studying...
haiz! i should have started very early

and


now...
have to

study

study

study


not joking~ but hope i can do what i say~ hehe



now i can find an excuse to not update my blog! wahahaha

i'm pisSed!

okay! i'm pissed now!
now! i'm just the non important person in the home!
the important one is the one who will share his problems and telephone back home!
yes! i'm not so important after all!


just because i'm here his there!


FINE!

i know!!! i'm just the manja girl...
who always make nonsense...
who also bring problem...
who also have stupid ideas...
who also have stupid dreams ...
who wants to do dangerous thing like car racing that will most probably risk her health and life...
who will never share her problems or even just seek for opinion...
who will never remember to call back home when she is out somewhere far...
who's not able to make her own decisions on her own even she is a 18 now...
who's not going to be able to live some place except HER HOME ...
who's not going to be able to live alone..
etc etc


if i can die like that easily, then i am risking my life now just because of living U KNOW! it's so dangerous in this world with dieases, inccidents, accidents, etc etc! i would probably die the NEXT FREAKING SECOND!

just have to follow the path u choose! everything u think is GOOD! AND how dare u tell ppl u are giving me 100% freedom when i cannot even go out late, clubbing, drinking, travel on my own...even playing snooker is BAD!

U never knew that doing like this will make our relatives laugh at me!
and i dun like to be laughed at! DO YOU EVER KNOW THAT! i hate to be laughed at! i SERIOUSLY HATE THAT
i'm so protected that they even call me WWF(a non profitable organistion who protects animals)
I HATE WHO I AM!
i hate that i cannot decide my life
i hate that i don't know what i want
i hate that u are making me so materialistic until i know money is not everything but without money i'm nothing
i hate that i'm actually studying something that i put it in the "NOT TO DO" list when i'm small
i hate that i dun have my own choice
i hate that i'm so lost and dun even know who i am
i hate that i can't concentrate when i need to study like NOW
i hate that i never ever get praised when i get 100 marks for my exam
i hate that you said that 100 marks was what i was suppose to do
i hate that i'm having a so comfortable life until i'm so lost in no where!
i hate that i cannot argue with you and will start having tears
i hate that i will just simply start to cry when i am suppose to tell you my thoughts of my choice
i hate that u also think that you are the best model for others
i hate that u never knew that you were wrong
i hate that u think i'm actually liking what i'm doing
i hate that i'm not as smart as him
i hate that we are all going to end up the same
i hate that i'm going to step into the boring office life with countless of OTs
i hate that i cannot even choose what i want!
i hate that i know what you want me to be/do
i hate that my life is already sort of setted by you
i hate that i have to graduate so young and start working
i hat that i'm such a good girl when i am young
i hate that i cannot disobey what you tell me to do
i hate that i cannot support my own life to do what i want
i hate that i'm hating so many things already and it is not all






i hate everything in my life now!
i have no targets to achieve
i have no motivation to push me to study and i know money as the motivator is already not enough
i DUN KNOW WHAT I WANT
i want to just slack around until i know what i want! DO YOU EVER KNOW THAT







NOW! i even hate that i'm writing this over here and let everyone see this and know i'm such a clueless person for this 18 years i lived!



and hate that i just posted this...

tIred...

today i had a class at 8am and was suppose to get out at 7,
but guess what
i WOKE UP at 7....

luckily i wasn't that late...
just a little bit late...
HuH... and i'm not to latest one to reach...
that's a big relief to me....

everything was fine until i start to feel seepy...
oMg... class can't be that boring!!!
yesterday wasn't how come today???
gosh... i quickly went home just for my pretty NAP....^^
halfway through, it RAINED heavily....
GOSH.... i really hate driving in rain, especially when i'm SLEEPY!!!

still i managed to get home safe.... hehe....

reached home, ate, watched tv and decided to read a book~
the stupid phone din rang for the that long period of time...

UNTIL i really can't open my eyes i went for THE nap
my freaking itiodic stoopitt phone start ringing...


sleeping...started my sweet dream.... THEN ring ring, ring ring ring.....
fine... first time... i'll pick it up....

then fall back to sleep....start dreaming again...THEN ring ring, ring ring...
@$&($&^*@ picked it up again....

then... i slept and dream again... it rang AGAIN!!!
it din end!
i went to sleep again and it just RANG again!!!!

when my parents came back it just dun ring... and when their gone i'm all alone... it will just basically ring and ring and ring and ring!!!
especially when i want to have a great comfortable enjoyable sweet NNNNNAAAAAPPPPP!

pls!!! giv me a break OKAY!!! i need my nap! suckers!!! dun phone my house when i'm sleeping!!! i hate you people and i will curse you to death!!! damn you!!!

it just simply happens ALL THE TIME!


maybe next time i will just simply pull off the telephone line, turn off my hp just for the peace for that little while~~

oFfIciaLly 18 !!!

wahaha~
i'm officially 18 now!!!
i can do thing leagally now!!!
wahahah...
things like...
drinking?
erm...
other i duno la... i know drinking yer~ XD

but still~
i'm 18 now... hehe



thx guys for celebrating, greating, presents, etc etc...
THANKS ~

thX LL kelly~ XD

for tagging me...
at least~ something to update with!

The Golden Rules:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how they relate to the questions.
5. Tag at least 5 people.



1. How are you feeling today?- complicated, avril lavigne
erm...went shopping with parents today was suppose to go out on 10 but went out on 10.30. REASONS? it's complicated~*blink

2. If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?-realised, Clobie Caillat
realised that... it'll be okay~

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?- free, elva 萧亚轩
it's free!!!!

4. Will you get far in life?-contagious, avril lavigne
erm... can someone tell me what contagious means?

5. What do you think about very often?-择偶条件(dunno how to translate this one), penny戴佩妮
oh crap! u just got me! sHhh... dun tell others... okay?

6. What is 2 + 2?- 挂在半梦半醒之间(half dreaming half awake), penny
eRrr... just like that lar! yor~

7. What's your best friend's theme song?
i accidentally erased this one when i was doing the spacing and din even realised~ so... cannot suddenly add some answer to this... so.... i think ppl tagged by me... you better dun forget about this question!!!

8. What is the story of your life?- 听袁惟仁弹吉它(listening to yuan wei ren play guitar),she
haha! it's actually quite inspiring of the lyric of the song

9. What is/was your high school like?-中国话(chinese),she
oH! u got me right~

10. What is your motto?-tell me why, nicky李玖哲
hahaha! it's always why why why

11. What’s the best thing about your friends?-angel, leona lewis
they are really my angels in my life =) luBbb... U~

12. What do you think of the person you like?-台北21度C(taipei 21 degree celcious), evan蔡旻佑
haha! it's where evan lives!!!! his my hubbY~ hahaha

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?- 未知数(unknown(the title of the song)), penny tai
it's just so true sometimes

14. What do you think of when you see the person you like?- the 1st time ever i saw ur face, leona lewis version
hmMM... the lyrics relates so good with this question! XD

15. Describe your grandparents.- homeless, leona lewis
IT IS SO NOT TRUE! they have place to live OKAY! HuHh... i'm offended! o.O

16. How's your life going?- everything back but you, avril lavigne
yes... my soul is not back yet~

17. What is your biggest fear?-LoVe ,elva
quite true? i usually doesn't know who i like, BUT i do know who i dun like okay!!!

18. What will be played at your funeral?- bleeding love, leona lewis
hahaha, so sad right~ i'm DEAD~ haha

19. What is your hobby/interest?-girlfriend, avril lavigne
oh GOSH~ i'm so gay *ops

20. Will you have a happy life?-飘着(floating), stephanie孙燕姿
it landing soon~

21. What do your friends really think of you?- in the beginning, evan
er.... we're still friends after the beginning?? right guys???

22. Do people secretly lust after you?-the best u never had, leona lewis
LUST means what???

23. How can you make yourself happy?-冲动(urge(that's what i found in the net!)), elva
HOW TO LINK??

24. Will you ever have children?-希区考克特作品152(alfred hitchcock's work 152) , evan
as what i found in the net, hitchcock is film director. he make mystery film~ therefore, the answer will be a mystery! wakaka

25. What song would you strip to?- 没有人要的孩子(a child that no one wants), evan
strip to?? means what? take off my clothes??? U CARZY AR!

26. What does your mom think of you?- hot, avril lavigne
ma thinks i'm HOT! *wink joking jer

27. What do you think of your parents?-honey honey honey, elva
u just dunno how much i love them~

28. What is your deep, dark secret?-better in time, leona lewis
eR~ i'll get better after some time??? Uh~ such an ackward explanation

29. What is your enemy's theme song?-complicated, avril lavigne
stOoopitTt...

30. What will you dance to at your wedding?-i'll be there, elva
dun worry~ i wont runaway.....i GuEss?






uHhhh~ i'm done at last~~~ why so many questions!!!! aiyor ~~
actually... i just found out... some song really do related very good!!!
i guess i listen to GREAT songs after all!!! hahahahha
okay~ i'm going to tag now~
1.yin sze
2.kelly ho
3.elaine
4.....
5.....

aiya~ dunno who to tag lar!

i'M doNe~

yee ha!!!
mock is OVER~~

i screwed it~
cause i din study~
but... who cares?


what i do care now~~
pls~ i have to study hard to exam in december NOW~

no more procrastination~~

REALLY!!!








i hope i can do so~




haha~

so now HOLIDAY officially starts...
i mean... a one week holiday~
hehe


i'm looking forward!!!!


HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3~~
MAMMA MIA...
EAGLE EYE


and...
so many movies....






just waiting for me~~ ^^




yeeha!!

boreD~

i'm bored~
tmr is MOCK

and

i'm still here
posting a new post

t3,t4,t5 will be domed...

i'll be failing...
can't even know what to crap about in the paper
i haven started studying
like what my friends did
(1-2 weeks ago)
i didn't

and

no one believes me
everyone thinks i'm bullshiting
everyone thinks i'm just joking
just no one believes me

and the truth is

i'm haven even started studying now
i hate it~
just~ believing me is just so hard~
so? does that means i'm not a truthful person?

i don't know
maybe i should just shut up~
KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT

right?

but!







i want to study, but i can't~
no MOTIVATION