壓力

救命啊！！！
現在很有壓力！
喘不過氣了！
我不要再聽到考試，讀書，考試，讀書！
不要再叫我讀書！！！
我真的很怕很怕了！！！
媽媽！你不要再叫我讀書了！
我很大壓力！
救命啊！！！
救救我！

swImmIng

YEs! i went swimming...
erm...exactly... swimming + playing in the water
was suppose to reach there by 8.30, but was late~
for like what! 10 minutes like that only la...
met up with jessica and dini...
walked to the front door of sun-u residence trying to go in, but the guard blocked us...
haiz...
din really want to talk to him,cause after talking to him sure cannot go in!
sad case.... humPh...
he din let us go in but we still manage to get in because he wasn't even looking at us when we were sitting on the bench behind the guard house!
we gathered, changed into swimming suits and went in the pool~
my GOD! the water is definetely cold lar!!! i was the last one to get myself wet!
just TOO COLD....
okay~ now i'm lazy to explain about the whole thing... go see dini or kelly ho's blog... the whole story is there....
but i have to say! SORRY brenda! because... i din mean to try to get ur phone wet!
it din really got wet la... but... i almost wet her hp! hehe
sorry!

毕业了！

毕业的不是我。。。
是你们~
我知道你们应该都不会来这里看的啦。。。
可是还是要写一下~
看着一个应该有我在里面的毕业典礼，心情很复杂。。。
很开心你们毕业了我也在那里看着，也很遗憾不能成为里面的一份子
以后不能一次看见你们全部人了，要真的聚在一起也难
以后呢想找一个借口回学校也不能了
不能再看见你们了
以后大家各分东西，走着自己的路，踏上自己人生的旅途！
很开心你们能让我参与，真的谢谢你们！
我没有哭哦！我很坚强吧！其实，只是该哭的都已经哭过了，没有你们那么伤心罢了
你们的笑声，你们的疯癫，你们的声音，你们的拥抱，我都会永远记住的！

bReaK~

i'm tired...
give me a break!
so tiring these days...
every single day, i feel tired~
dun want to get out of the bed...
i just love how it smells! XD
no lar~ joking jer~
actually, i love how it feels~ hehe... big, soft, comfortable, with my beloved pillows, bolster, blanket.... okay~ i boast enough about it now!

it'll be happy enough getting in my blog hence no more bad dreams for me okay! =)







OH!



btw



remember i told you i need a break?







i'm in it NOW~ X)

emoING

oh gosh~ looks like i sound a bit emo...
haiz... cause i was real angry that time? hehe


i think i should stop blogging for sometime...
exam is coming and i am still not studying...
haiz! i should have started very early

and


now...
have to

study

study

study


not joking~ but hope i can do what i say~ hehe



now i can find an excuse to not update my blog! wahahaha

i'm pisSed!

okay! i'm pissed now!
now! i'm just the non important person in the home!
the important one is the one who will share his problems and telephone back home!
yes! i'm not so important after all!


just because i'm here his there!


FINE!

i know!!! i'm just the manja girl...
who always make nonsense...
who also bring problem...
who also have stupid ideas...
who also have stupid dreams ...
who wants to do dangerous thing like car racing that will most probably risk her health and life...
who will never share her problems or even just seek for opinion...
who will never remember to call back home when she is out somewhere far...
who's not able to make her own decisions on her own even she is a 18 now...
who's not going to be able to live some place except HER HOME ...
who's not going to be able to live alone..
etc etc


if i can die like that easily, then i am risking my life now just because of living U KNOW! it's so dangerous in this world with dieases, inccidents, accidents, etc etc! i would probably die the NEXT FREAKING SECOND!

just have to follow the path u choose! everything u think is GOOD! AND how dare u tell ppl u are giving me 100% freedom when i cannot even go out late, clubbing, drinking, travel on my own...even playing snooker is BAD!

U never knew that doing like this will make our relatives laugh at me!
and i dun like to be laughed at! DO YOU EVER KNOW THAT! i hate to be laughed at! i SERIOUSLY HATE THAT
i'm so protected that they even call me WWF(a non profitable organistion who protects animals)
I HATE WHO I AM!
i hate that i cannot decide my life
i hate that i don't know what i want
i hate that u are making me so materialistic until i know money is not everything but without money i'm nothing
i hate that i'm actually studying something that i put it in the "NOT TO DO" list when i'm small
i hate that i dun have my own choice
i hate that i'm so lost and dun even know who i am
i hate that i can't concentrate when i need to study like NOW
i hate that i never ever get praised when i get 100 marks for my exam
i hate that you said that 100 marks was what i was suppose to do
i hate that i'm having a so comfortable life until i'm so lost in no where!
i hate that i cannot argue with you and will start having tears
i hate that i will just simply start to cry when i am suppose to tell you my thoughts of my choice
i hate that u also think that you are the best model for others
i hate that u never knew that you were wrong
i hate that u think i'm actually liking what i'm doing
i hate that i'm not as smart as him
i hate that we are all going to end up the same
i hate that i'm going to step into the boring office life with countless of OTs
i hate that i cannot even choose what i want!
i hate that i know what you want me to be/do
i hate that my life is already sort of setted by you
i hate that i have to graduate so young and start working
i hat that i'm such a good girl when i am young
i hate that i cannot disobey what you tell me to do
i hate that i cannot support my own life to do what i want
i hate that i'm hating so many things already and it is not all






i hate everything in my life now!
i have no targets to achieve
i have no motivation to push me to study and i know money as the motivator is already not enough
i DUN KNOW WHAT I WANT
i want to just slack around until i know what i want! DO YOU EVER KNOW THAT







NOW! i even hate that i'm writing this over here and let everyone see this and know i'm such a clueless person for this 18 years i lived!



and hate that i just posted this...

tIred...

today i had a class at 8am and was suppose to get out at 7,
but guess what
i WOKE UP at 7....

luckily i wasn't that late...
just a little bit late...
HuH... and i'm not to latest one to reach...
that's a big relief to me....

everything was fine until i start to feel seepy...
oMg... class can't be that boring!!!
yesterday wasn't how come today???
gosh... i quickly went home just for my pretty NAP....^^
halfway through, it RAINED heavily....
GOSH.... i really hate driving in rain, especially when i'm SLEEPY!!!

still i managed to get home safe.... hehe....

reached home, ate, watched tv and decided to read a book~
the stupid phone din rang for the that long period of time...

UNTIL i really can't open my eyes i went for THE nap
my freaking itiodic stoopitt phone start ringing...


sleeping...started my sweet dream.... THEN ring ring, ring ring ring.....
fine... first time... i'll pick it up....

then fall back to sleep....start dreaming again...THEN ring ring, ring ring...
@$&($&^*@ picked it up again....

then... i slept and dream again... it rang AGAIN!!!
it din end!
i went to sleep again and it just RANG again!!!!

when my parents came back it just dun ring... and when their gone i'm all alone... it will just basically ring and ring and ring and ring!!!
especially when i want to have a great comfortable enjoyable sweet NNNNNAAAAAPPPPP!

pls!!! giv me a break OKAY!!! i need my nap! suckers!!! dun phone my house when i'm sleeping!!! i hate you people and i will curse you to death!!! damn you!!!

it just simply happens ALL THE TIME!


maybe next time i will just simply pull off the telephone line, turn off my hp just for the peace for that little while~~

oFfIciaLly 18 !!!

wahaha~
i'm officially 18 now!!!
i can do thing leagally now!!!
wahahah...
things like...
drinking?
erm...
other i duno la... i know drinking yer~ XD

but still~
i'm 18 now... hehe



thx guys for celebrating, greating, presents, etc etc...
THANKS ~