negativity

I really dun like the negativity in me.
But I really do hate where I am heading.
Why cant you guys just see it and give me a break?
How hard is it to give me a break?
You just rather have me wasting all my time on studying.
I'm feeling that you just rather have me wasting time on dragging on graduation by failing more and more papers.
You just rather have me feel bad about myself, my laziness.
Just never want to know the source of all these.
You just want to solve things without knowing the reason.
I'm just wondering. How the hell are you going solve them?
You think you know what is best for me.
You just wants me to do whatever you think is right and not let me try something else and taste the failure of it so I will go to the right track.


FML!

Goodbyes

why is a simple goodbye in different places mean so different.
shouldn't all goodbyes mean the same and feel the same?
Why does the "Goodbye" in the airport means more of a sadness?
and
Why it does not feel like the same as the one we use to say everyday even though they still mean the same.

Thinking

Thinking again..
Thoughts in my mind again...
Is it that I just can't accept the fact, or there's something waiting to be done?
Sunked in them again.
blah blah blah...

Typical

Ah... typical me again
Lazy to update my blog
I didn't update it for I also dunno how long
just... WHAT should I write here?
what i ate for dinner?
or, what class is like today
so boring....

then,
I'm not a sentimental person
I can't write my feelings beautifully
Well, when i try to, it actually turns out quite stupidly written
so, I just dun try to write, hence, no updates

oh! btw
I failed paper f4, law
and i passed the other 2
which makes me in quite trouble now
4 papers to take this sem
tonnes of study, tonnes of revising, tonnes of understanding and tonnes of memorizing

and which out of all those
what I actually did was
tonnes of slacking... that's all

Well, life is boring,
my blog is boring,
and so am I...
I am childish which I hope I can erase that out of my system
but it just, or I just don't know how to be matured
thus equals boring...

ZzZzzzz.....