DyinG...

dying slowly...
because of t5...
still can't remember a thing...
GREAT!



and i still have time to blog here... >.<>
no wonder my exam always fails
i never wants to study...
no motivation at all...

weird....

see! that's what happens when i change to blogspot to be like my friends...
(if u dunno what i'm talking about... see the chat box)
and my other friends will feel weird....

always... these kind of things happens...
i change for one... the other one will feel weird...
i'm thinking... WHAT SHOULD I DO to satisfy people...
then slowly... i start to do things to satisfy people but not me myself...
slowly my life is about people but not me...
really... i found this out....
i start to feel now... my friends dun need me...
it's just me the one who is doing things and still think they need me...
but in the end... they dun really need me anywhere...
me... is the one always left out...
OR i rather say... i'm the one not joining them?
me myself... i dunno...
to them... i'm the other big group of people, not the small group of "i need u" people
i might feel sad but in the end... my conclusion is...
i'm the one who thinks too much...

NOW...
i would like to start on the i want, i want., i want situation...
i want to change it...
i would now rather be a freaking selfish person who only care about myself...
i would only want to know about me...
i shall not be afraid of being alone in a group of people...
suddenly i'm thinking... i dun need to entertain people...
i just need to entertain myself...
i know i won't ever try to hurt myself...
how would u hurt urself? tell me...
I is the important thing now...
friends? HA! it still depends...


ps: i know might sound a bit emo... but the truth is... who dun sometimes sound emo?

Happy BirthDAy~ LL kelly tan

yeah! today's a HOLIDAY!
i was suppose to be home~
i was suppose to be sleeping till afternoon and do whatever i want!
BUT i have to go to the dentist~ HAIZ~ yer~
the greatest dentist ever!
i went to him on monday because the wire of the braces came off and had to fix it back~
everything was great UNTIL it end up POKING my mouth and i know it's going to be a ulser!
it hurts u know!
NOW! i have 3 ulsers... how GREAT~ haiz...
only got home with my parents at 5 something~
my PIG time gone... my FUN time gone... *sob sob

nvm... one holiday gone... that'll nothing serious... haha
haven update for 7 days edi...
just because i DUN HAVE time....
u believe? haha
i'll try to have sometime to update okay~ hehe

AND

tadadada!

TODAY
IS

LL KELLY TAN's BIRTHDAY!

happy birthday!!!
and we gave a surprise party yesterday~ XD
not gonna write it all over again... and i'm not really good in writing u know~
go to brenda, dini or elaine's blog to see the whole story okay?


got ta go now! BYE~

tagged by dear kelly HO~

thanks for remembering to tag me...>.<''
shouldn't have go to ur blog... XD
sry to others if u'd tagged me but i din do the tag....

1. Six people to tag:
-yin sze
-audrey
-chea ying
-ei! my friends dun come read my blog... and those who come... done this tag edi lar...

2. Six things I’m passionate about:
-myself
-to be good in ONE if the sports that i know
-jeans that fits me good
-get a good rest after stressing myself
-the handsome guy i saw today!
-definetely FOOD

3. Six things I say too often:
-what the....
-shit(i know it's not nice but still it just comes out of my mouth)
-harRRr....
-dunno edi la... if u know u tell me la
-do uactually know that i'll just smile back to u if i dun hear what u said
-...

4. Six books I’ve read recently:
-t3
-t4
-t5
-t6
-one piece(it's actually a comic... found it on the dining table)
-books that are related for malaysian studies assignment(global warming punya summore)

5. Six songs I listen to again and again:
-prisoner of love(japanese song! i just LOVE it)
-take a bow(rihanna)
-love song(dunno whose one... always heard it in radio)
-stop and stare
- arvil lavigne's songs~ i just never get bored with her songs!
-others i forgot the name edi la!

6. Six things I learnt in the past year:
-try to follow my heart even though i really CARE about what people say especially my parents... it's just so hard for them to support what i want and i really dun have the will to challenge them
-really need to study damn fxxking hard now edi lar! CAT a... dun study?? DIE la...
-exercise more la.... to get healthy and keep fit! muahaha
-i really have to reaction to those guys that people say they are handsome and good looking but i dun find them really that nice... but for those whom i see handsome! i'll go crazy! XD
-i really need my friends around... without them i'm just not me... for those whom i dun see so often now~ i really really missed u guys....
-having someone who drives u everywhere u want is really a good thing... driving is tiring sometimes...


ps: hope my answers answered the questions.... sometimes i just too "good" enough to give wrong answers... just like what i "cleverly" did for exams....

unKnown tiTle...

dunno put what title for this post...
very lazy to update myblog....even though it's just one simple post
just dunno what to write about...
not like my friends they can write very very well and super duper interesting...
haiz...
maybe that's why i can't write my essays during exam...
and they are always dreathfully low marks...

today... we dun have t3 class... so happy~
class will now end at 1.30 on tuesdays~ ^^
and friday will also only start on 11.30!
i get to sleep now~
after class today... went to eat at orange... still dun like there...
every time when come back from there sure smell oily... haiz
but.... no place to eat edi... only orange, medan, cafeteria....
and today... at last... B knows how which one is yee mee and which one is ban mee...
hahaha... XD hope she still remembers it and know what to order the next time...
and! we saw a girl playing the rubiks cube and someone was teaching her!!!
wanted to go and ask her to teach me also~ haiz... why i still cannot solve it? aih~
after eating went to library with kelly ho, jettkyii, brenda to finish the slide for the presentation tmr...
just hope it'll not be tmr~
*pray pray pray....

and dunno why these days class are still the same,
BUT
i felt sleepy and closed my eyes to REST!
just canot open my eyes....
and my jaw is hurting and my eye feel damn dry!
gerRr....it's like i start to become sick... i duno want!!!
PT2 is end of the month lar! YeR....
better wish to be more healthy and strong!!! =)


ps: time passes very fast... people known each other quite well now... true colours show... we accept what we accept and hate what we hate, but we're still FRIENDs...right? XD

and there might be people who start to hate me or dun like me...who knows...

blindfold my future

i'm studying CAT now....
when i finished CAT... i will go to ACCA
in case u people don't know...
after if i get to graduate ACCA i'll be working and will be an accountant...
or... if u want, u can also be finicial counsellor or whatever thing related to what u studied la...
if dun want... can also be a boss geh...

as u can see... the above will be my future....
what my parents think of....
it's planned so nice.... not a flaw...
BUT guess what!
when i was a kid...
i told everyone i din want to become an accountant...
i DUN want to become an accountant!
i want to do something that is not related to accounts....
when i was in secondary school, i went to study in commerce class....
and now college i cannot do engineering, doctor or whatever that is related to science...
and, my science sucks...
so... when i finished my SPM still thinking about it...
ask my parents what to study they suggest those pre-U and CAT~
they'll tell me accountancy is better...
better future, better pay, better blah blah blah...
when i tell them i thought of studying psychology
they tell me! u know what job u'll be getting?
after grad. will get lower pay, dunno how's the future and blah blah blah... lots of unknown will be there....
i'm a materialistic person... money goes first in this world, so do i
i know money is not everything... but everything needs money...
that's what i was thinking about...
and now... i'm studying CAT and i have thoughts about it...
when it get harder i'll think...
am i in the right course? isit meant for me? do i really want this?
so many questions are bugging me...
really confused and dunno what is my future...
really hate to be unknown~

haPpy birThday emily~~~

yesterday after class we went to play squash!
it's not really that hard to play~
but to be a pro! it's hard!
when i play with kelly ho and her very pro friends....
gosh! i din even get to hit the ball they serve!
at the end of the game.... i knew how to serve! haha!
and i liked it! it's better that volleyball to me!
after that we went to brenda's hostel, bath and then went to red box!
we started to sing and wait for emily and ashley~
half way when we're singing~ they came!
the music was turned off and ashley bring emily in with her eyes closed~
then when ashley took off the blindfold... we start singing birthday songs to her~
the surprise for emily is definetely sucessful! XD
i went home at 11.30
and when i reached... get scolded...
>.<

btw~
happy birthday emily!!!

loving is caring

watched a japanese tv series~
haven finished it yet~
hope i can finished it quickily~
because
i have to start studying again!
CAT... nerd programme
i have to turn into a nerd!
and
OF COURSE.... nerds are now a very trendy thing to be!
if you want to trendy, be a nerd!! =)
muahaha! XD




loving~ loving is hard~~~i guess~
expecially when you love someone u weren't suppose to fall in love
can't do anything but just look at them
u will not dare to be too close but u dun want to be too far away~
u hope they will pay attention to you even though it is just for like 1 sec.
u hope to go through everything with them but you can't
so sad right!
haiz~
so! my advise~ better dun love someone you weren't suppose too!
if u are now~ then!
bad for you lor! hahaha!

okay! i better go to bed now~ it's kinna late edi